Relax
It's been a while and of course a lot has been going on especially in the wake of my engagement. I went to the Sudan with the fiancee to introduce her to the family and to show her "who I was" in a manner of speaking. (Maybe more on that later as there are some reflections on the trip, as short as it was, that I want to jot down here.) My finacee's folks were in town and there was the usual dealing with the fallout of having parents around, during which I tried to keep a cool head. There was a phone call with my good friend the Gee Nome, and his mentioning that my last serious girlfriend prior to Dr Germ was both married and had a kid and had been that way for 5 years or so. I tried to hold it together there as well. I saw a face from the Dark Ages on the BART yesterday as well, which lead to an awkward hurrying onto a train. Finally I discovered that I may have lost a USB key containing a lot of sensitive information, at the same time as discovering how much money was languishing in a FSA account for commuter benefits that will now likely just revert to the federal govt (you're welcome).
It's becoming harder and harder to keep cool, which feels even worse since I gave a long speech about how "adult life is all about keeping your cool because nothing ever goes smoothly so just learn to relax" yesterday. Feeling like a bit of a chump. Worse, a chump with anger/anxiety issues.