Denial is Also a River in Khartoum
A cheap pun I guess, but a pretty accurate description of what's happening. In about a month, there will be a referendum in the south of the Sudan to determine whether the region and it's people will be secede from the country. If they choose to do so they will end a tumultuous marriage that will have lasted for 55 years. If they don't they'll be stuck in a rather twisted affair that is both loving and loveless, abusive and tender. Other people have written far more eloquently on the subject of the South than I have and I don't want to add any more words to the heap that has been poured out so far. Instead I want to talk about the North, and what is going on in the minds of many northern Sudanese (or at least a few).
Whether or not you've been to the South, most northern Sudanese you run into were born and raised in a world where they were from Africa's largest country, and one that possessed a diversity of climates and environments, languages and cultures. Like a stately home that's seen better days, every bit of it feels familiar, even the ones that you don't spend time in, or that may be in disrepair. It feels like it will always be home and that's something that northerners are going to have to face soon is that it may not be. There is a distinct chance that part of our home will be gone in January 2011, and even though we've done little to keep it as a part of us, I feel like many people take it for granted that it will stay. Certainly, the government doesn't seem to believe it will be gone (and all it's oil reserves and revenue with it), and is making no attempt to convince southerners to vote for a unified Sudan. Even as the supporters of secession make a concerted effort, there is a lackadaisical attitude towards maintaining the union. The saddest thing for me is that no matter which way the vote goes, there will likely be lots of violence in a place that had hoped that those years were long past and would not come again.
Anyway ... I'm concerned about the whole thing and bracing myself for what seems inevitable. There doesn't seem to be much to keep it from happening, and I am hoping against hope, or in denial. Either way I sense disappointment coming my way.