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February 18, 2009

In Memoriam: Tayeb Salih

I got a dose of bad news this morning as I checked through my usual news sites. I read news of the passing away of ElTayyib Salih (Tayeb Salih to you non-Arabic speakers out there) at age 80 in London. This is a global tragedy for such a distinct literary voice to be so decisively silenced forever. It's also a national tragedy, certainly in Sudan, where we have had so little to be proud of in recent years; but it's also a tragedy on a personal level. My father met 'amu (uncle) ElTayyib during a conference in the UK more than a decade ago. The older man befriended my gregarious and inquisitive father, and they remained friends in the years after their meeting. My Dad made an effort to visit 'amu ElTayyib whenever he was in the UK, to catch up and exchange stories and news. In fact, it was during one of these trips that my Dad mentioned that I had never read his seminal book, Season of Migration to the North. He generously responded by giving my Dad two inscribed copies of the book in English and in Arabic. When Dad got home, we all read the books. My brother was shocked and scandalized by the books, with their frank discussions of sexuality and violence - taboo subjects in the Sudan in every sphere. "No Sudanese could have written these books!" he exclaimed. As for me, I wasn't sure; this had opened many intellectual doors for me, but rocked some of the foundations of my thinking on what it meant to be Sudanese. I wondered if I'd ever get to meet the man himself, thank him and talk a little about what he'd written.

Of course that cannot happen now, and I sit here feeling several things beyond the obvious loss. First of all is the general anger that this under-appreciated author recieved such shoddy obituaries in the press. There was no mention cause of death or anything. Yes, he's an old man, but considering that the New Yorker practically devoted last week's issue to John Updike, it wouldn't have been too much to just show a little more of the circumstances of his life and death. It wasn't till quite late in the day that those circumstances were revealed. I called my Dad, and he told me that he'd been in a coma due to his kidney condition, and it had only been a matter of time. Guess it was better to hear that from Dad than the NY Times.

The only other thing that I feel pretty strongly about is that he was never recognized on the appropriate scale. I feel like someone (maybe me?) should write to the Nobel committee and recommend that they consider him, but I'm not sure if all that mail goes directly to a shredder in Stockholm.

My outrage is running out steam, and I've stepped back from the precipice of emotion I was at when I started writing. Rest in peace 'amu ElTayyib, and thank you.

February 13, 2009

Crazy People overheard

This was too big to fit in a tweet:

man, i'm very proud! but i haven't bought it yet. it cost 1 million and i only got 600K so... but i am close - funny thing, i'm playing with some new unlocked costumes and the presidents daughter came out in knight armor! funny sht! but the good thing is they cant harm her now. i love this game

discussing a video game - but if you didn't know that, how crazy would this sound?

February 10, 2009

Disclosure

ALV: heehee- i love how you take time every so often to let the people in your world know what you think of them

The quote above came at the end of a brief chat session with a friend of mine. We had been talking back and forth, and I had thanked her for cheering me up. Then the conversation got silly for a bit as we discussed the vagaries of the Disney version of Winnie the Pooh, and I told her that she had reached the high water mark of silliness, which prompted the quote above.

At the time I sort of laughed it off, but at the same time it got me thinking: why shouldn't we tell the people around us what we think of them? In fact, as I went back in time trying to think of when I started to do it. As a kid, you take people for granted and their place in your life. Sometimes you change your mind when you get older, sometimes something happens to let you know what the dangers of taking people for granted are. In my case, I lost a very good friend in a senseless accident. When your last words to someone are something terribly inane, then you begin to wonder at what you have been saying - or rather, not saying.

So l started telling people what I thought. I started blurting them out, and not always at the right times, but then again who's to say if that time is not the last one? Over time, I have said some outlandish things to people, but I've never regretted it. After all, it could be the last time...

February 3, 2009

Philanthropy

Ok folks, I talked about my Dad's village from my trip before this last one and their request for computers. All my grand plans for a philanthropic organization sort of fell by the wayside, but I resolved that I would at least make good on that one promise. So I arranged for 6 computers with monitors to be bought and transported to the Sudan, so that they would arrive when I got there. I went and got them out of customs, and I brought them home, verified their operation and then loaded them with software.

But I didn't get to take them to the village myself. They weren't out of customs in time, and the school wasn't ready for them. So I left with them sitting in my parents' living room.

Today my Dad told me that they had finally gotten to the village. I am filled with relief and joy, and not a little pride. It feels so good to have done something for my father's village - for my own people - directly. I've put my sister in charge of following up with the village to see how the machines are being used, and to figure out where to go next with this little project. I just wanted to let those of you who egged me on that we were successful - thanks to all of you for the support you kicked my way.

February 2, 2009

Americana

As those of you living in the US are aware, yesterday was Superbowl Sunday, which marks the end of the NFL season with a bacchanalian feast and feats of strength performed by latter day gladiators for the amusement of the masses. The game was one for the ages, going back and forth for the full hour, and coming down to the last play and the last 20 seconds. It's one of the times when I am in alignment with the rest of the country and we all shout at our televisions in a happy cacophony of second guessing amateurs.

So that was a brief, root-beer-covered, moment of joy. This moment was bright and shining and I came to work this morning pretty-much ready to get to work....

Foreshadowing? Anyway, at midday we were called into a meeting with the director at LiteBrite Co (my new employer in case you missed it - Ed.). There we were told about the 10% reduction in staff (which we had thankfully escaped) and the 10% reduction in salaries (which we hadn't). I sat there thinking how glad I was to still have a job, and how I was now swept up in the economic turbulence of the times.

I wish I had something more interesting to say about this but I am a bit numb and a lot ambivalent about the whole thing.